That is how I feel!
I will try my best to put it the way I want it to be and to make it understandable too. But as I have it in most raw form in my mind and desperately wish to put it in words, so kindly cope up with me.
Since this pandemic started I have seen many things changing. Be it as big as the world itself or as small as an individuals’ life. But the most important thing I observed is how my mother reacts to situations. Let me put it this way, “My mother is a superhuman”. And I mean it when I say this. Before the pandemic, I never got to spend this much time, days and nights with her. Now let me explain that why I call her a superhuman. Let’s dive into an overview of my mom’s typical day. She would wake-up at around 5 am every day, and that is where I feel ashamed of myself, the first time. As I am unable to keep up the routine of waking up early. That is where she wins each and every day, and I can’t even give her competition, in fact, I am nowhere near her in the competition.
She wastes not even a single second of her very important time. I don’t know how she has managed to master this skill so well, but her focus towards completing a task, which is also self-assigned is tremendous. Like, can you imagine how self-motivated she would be. And that is where I feel ashamed of myself, the second time. One day I ended up asking her that “Mom are you even aware of how productive you are?”. Her reply was, “What is productivity Taimoor?”. Not knowing the concept, yet she is beating Carnot engine’s efficiency.
“Pro-active” is a word not known by Mama, yet she would say, “If I haven’t planned ahead, at least a day or two how will I be able to manage things.” Mama learned to use smartphone from me during pandemic, that is where I won, soon realizing I can’t even overtake her in using technology. Here is the reason, the 1st thing Mama learned from Youtube was the stitching of a new type of frock, which she stitched later, for Hoorain (my niece). There I was feeling ashamed the 3rd time, as the 1st thing I learned was how to make an ID on Facebook.
I have my role model walking around me day and night making me realize what I should do to be at the level Mama is right now. I wish I would be able to fulfill the dreams Mama has about me in her mind. I wish I would be able to let her know that I am her proud son. I wish I would be up to the mark.
Lot’s of love to all the mother’s around the world!